So here I sit, an empty text box before me, a new blog project begun.  I feel like I should say something profound here, but that is also keeping me from just sitting down and writing something and getting this show on the road. And so this is where I begin.

My name is Drake.  I am just over a month shy of my 35th birthday, and I feel like a failure as an adult.  I am desperately unhappy with so many parts of my life, I don’t even know where to start.

I graduated from College in 2008 with a degree in Sociology.  But I am still working in my college job as a server in the foodservice industry.  I have a small jewelry-making business which while I sort of have a dream of making it my career, I’m afraid of all that would have to be done to do so.

While I am by all accounts a fairly attractive person, I am unhappy with my body.  It’s not so much that I think of myself as fat or extremely unhealthy, it’s just that I know I could be in much better physical condition if I could only develop a little discipline.

My spiritual practice has been stagnant for a while now.  In some ways I could say that beyond the annual punctuation of a spiritual gathering I attend, it’s been fairly stagnant for a few years.  I have a sort of general faith, but my actual practice is incredibly sporadic.

My relationships, well, they are complicated.  I am queer and polyamorous.  I have a partner and two boyfriends.  My partner and I recently relocated to a new state to be closer to our boyfriends, and I have left what few friends I had behind.  I’ve had little contact with my family, and am not really sure what I want those relationships to be going forward.  I haven’t made any new friends here beyond casual acquaintances, and I’m not sure I really want to.

I have a sort of philosophical embrace of the concepts of minimalism and simplicity, but I haven’t been able to make a lot of headway in getting there.  While I did move to a much smaller apartment when I came here, and I did get rid of a lot of unnecessary things when I moved, I still have an attic full of things that should really be sorted through and evaluated for their worth.

So this is where I am right now.  Not really a beginning, since so many changes in my life have been happening over the past year.  But certainly not the end, either.  This is a blog about transformation.  About my life being reforged into something stronger, better than it has been up to this point.  I am inviting you to follow me as I take this journey to a life reforged.

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