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Day 2 – Did you have any experiences as a child that might have foreshadowed your sexuality?

This is a question better asked of my parents. My stepmother and my mother would probably say yes. Though I don’t really understand what the question is asking. Before I was sexually aware, what kind of “foreshadowing” could there possibly be besides noncomformity to gender roles, which really has nothing to do with sexuality. Did I display any stereotypically “gay” traits?

My aunts occasionally dressed me up as a girl when I was a baby. I don’t really think of that as foreshadowing. I did dress in drag for halloween once, but lots of the straight guys I went to school with did that at least one year. I would play barbies with my girlfriend when I was 6, and come home and play with Transformers and GI-Joe. I’ve seen photos of me from when I was young, and I look at the clothes I was wearing and the position I was standing in, and I think, HELLO? ISN’T IT OBVIOUS? But I also think that a lot of that is based on stereotypes and doesn’t really have anything to do with what it is to be queer. Especially since I am now out and open, and there is no way in hell I would wear some of those clothes again.

I do know at one point around probably 6th grade, I said that I felt like a girl in a boy’s body. I know that is similar to how trans people describe how they felt, but looking at it now, I realize it wasn’t really that I felt that I was a girl, that was the only language I had to describe what I was feeling. I didn’t really think I was a girl, and I didn’t really want to be a girl, It was just that I recognized that I didn’t really fit the gender role prescribed for me.

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